Don’t let it be in a moment of weakness when you’re feeling alone and just want someone familiar to comfort you. Don’t let it be when you’re drowning your sorrows in a bottle and you send a text message that your future self will hate you for. Don’t let it be because you think you can’t do better and they’re still close enough for you to reach, but far enough that they might still be able to get away.
Don’t run back to them because you’re lonely, or sad, or heartbroken because the person who broke you won’t be able to fix the broken pieces and glue your heart back together. After all, they were the ones who broke it in the first place.
If you go back you think it’ll be different this time. You think that they’ve changed, that things have changed, that you have grown as individuals and as people, but things won’t change.
There is still a good chance you’ll get hurt, again, because after all it is possible to have your heart broken more than once by the same person.
You might think they’re different, you might want to believe them when they say they’ve changed, but in all honesty they haven’t changed. Maybe in the beginning they can cover up who they are a little bit more. Maybe they can fool you that this time around things will be different, but people don’t really change.
In the beginning you’ll probably feel like you made the right choice because this time you can see they’re trying. You feel like things are going to be different because they care more about you and your relationship, but things will turn from blissful to an instant reminder of why things didn’t work out the first time, or the second time.
If you go back to them they’ll just think that whatever they do you will forgive them for and keep doing it without any concern to how their actions make you feel. They can apologize all they want for their actions and the way they made you feel, but they don’t actually mean it. Not when they continue to do the same thing over and over.
You are not weak for loving them and you are not weak for thinking that they might have changed because you honestly want the best for the people you love.
You want to believe that things will be better for them because you never want to see the person you love fail. But you can’t go down with them. You can’t be with someone who repeatedly drags you down and breaks your heart because of their own selfish ways. That isn’t healthy.
You just feel magic in the air around them, you feel like the world is more alive and you forget all your pain when you’re around them on a good day, but when it isn’t a good day it’s impossible to forget and you’ll torture yourself with self-hate for going back.
You know they aren’t good for you, but you can’t help it. You’re drawn to them and you can’t help but want them, even though you know how they aren’t good for you.
But you owe yourself more than that.
You owe yourself more than going back to the person who has hurt you time after time because as much as you want them to change, they won’t and you can’t help a person who doesn’t want to help themself.
I know it’s hard and I know you miss them, but you can’t go back to someone who doesn’t bring out the best in you. Being with someone who drags you down isn’t healthy and they will continue to hurt you, even if they promised they wouldn’t.
Know your worth and stand up for yourself.
I know it might be hard now, but I promise it will be better in the future and the pain you’re feeling inside will heal, it might take months or years, but eventually it will be okay.
You will grow on your own and work towards the person you want to be. Your happiness will be yours again and the best part is you will be the one who is creating it.