She loved you and you broke her. Instead of making life beautiful for both of you by simply giving her your love, you chose to go the other way around. And that sucks. Do you know why? Because she pulled the shorter end of the stick.
She did nothing to deserve the things you did to her. But unfortunately, she wasn’t one of those who dodged the bullet. You hit her right in the center of her heart. Not a millimeter higher or lower. And she shattered into a million pieces.
The list of things you did to her is so long that one can’t help but wonder if you feed off of other people’s misery. Does it make you happy to see someone down? Do you feel good about yourself when you knock a person to the lowest point she has ever been in her life?
You never cared about what would be left of her once you were done with her. You never stopped for a second and thought about how your shitty actions would affect her, this girl who wanted nothing but to be there for you and love you.
Is there anything worse than seeing a good girl falling for the wrong guyand then turning into someone else once she gets broken by that same guy who was supposed to love her?
After a heartbreak, we all change. But after getting broken, we change completely. Because the lessons you learn after you get broken stay carved into your mind forever. And you can never let that go.
You turned her into a person who no longer trusts anyone.
Because she trusted you and look where that got her. If she had just been a little smarter, if she hadn’t gone all in from the beginning, if she hadn’t assumed you were one of the good guys, she wouldn’t be this broken now. But she is. And that’s why she doesn’t trust anyone anymore. She’s always one foot out the door.
Since you broke her, she no longer wears her heart on her sleeve.
She guards her heart now, with all the resources she has. She’s built walls so high that nothing can tear them down. It will be a long time before she thinks about welcoming anyone in. That’s if she ever decides to do that.
She knows now that she can count only on herself.
She counted on you and you pulled the rug from under her feet. You showed her that she shouldn’t trust anyone. But worst of all, she saw that even though she was there for someone with all her being, it didn’t mean that someone would be there for her too. You showed her that the only person who won’t let her down is herself.
She crossed love off her wish list.
This was her ultimate wish, you know. But she no longer wants love. Because you showed her love hurts. You showed her the dark side of falling for someone. And now she sees love through the prism of you. And it’s not nice.
That’s why she said goodbye to love. She no longer wants to love or to be loved. That chapter in her life is closed, and it might even be closed for good.
She learned to laugh even when she felt like screaming. She learned to smile even when everything in her was breaking.
She was never good at faking her feelings. But you know, life teaches you even the things you don’t really want to know. Now she bottles her feelings up. She doesn’t show anyone how she feels. When she feels like screaming, she just laughs. When she feels like breaking, she just smiles. Because if she lets herself go, she’s afraid that she’ll break into a million pieces and that she’ll never be able to pull herself back together.
She hates the sentence “I’m fine”, but after you, that’s all she ever says about her feelings.
She doesn’t let anyone know how she feels. She says she’s fine. But in that fine, there are millions of emotions, thousands of tears and one huge heartbreak. She’s everything but fine even though she’ll never admit that.
She was the loveliest person to be around. She was the happiest person in this world. She believed that there was good in people and that love could save the world. But you showed her otherwise. You showed her that her love isn’t strong enough to defeat someone as bad as you are. And you turned her into one of those people she begged God for her to never become.
You turned her into a living corpse. She walks, she talks, she breathes and she eats but she has no soul. She has no love in her anymore. She’s cold. There are no warm emotions in her bloodstream. There is no happiness or honest smiles. She lost all that to you.
You pulled her into your darkness and you let her go, only when you saw that there wasn’t a single trace of light left in her.